I decided to leave Berlin. This moving is a huge task. I cannot take everything with me. I would need a bigger truck which I can’t drive by myself. Booking a moving company is too expensive. I asked for offers, one company replied. Moving from Berlin back home: 2400€.
I love my couch. But it’s broken and I realised it probably contains too much sadness. How many days did I spent on that couch last year crying my eyes out. I didn’t count. But it was probably a bathtub full of tears.
In the past I would just make an add on ebay Kleinanzeigen to find people who would come by and collect the stuff.
Now this seems not a good idea for various reasons.
I guess I can’t use my old account anymore, the stalkers are probably watching it.
But I also cannot make a new account and put photos in there, because the stalkers were in my apartment and probably recognize my furniture.
I realised this last Friday and since then I have been crying every day. These thoughts are causing another negative thought spiral and I am blocked.
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