For the last two days I am looking at the youtube protocols of the playlists I made in May 2022. They are insane. In the days from May 15 to May 25 I added 285 songs and mostly within a few hours per day with only a few minutes apart.
At first, I had lots of fun. But in the end I was super stressed out and felt in a state of a psychosis.
I didn’t do anything else back then. Well, I went to work. But eventually work was not important anymore and I was more busy listening to the radio and playing the youtube game. No wonder I lost my job.
Looking back, I had the perfect requirements to be a victim of mind games.
In January I had lost a group of friends due to a stupid fight one person of that group put up. We are still not talking.
Then it was lockdown, so I didn’t feel like going out very much. It was possible, but one had to do corona-tests for everything.
I didn’t feel well in the apartment, because the neighbours were so loud with their constant coughing. So filling that unwelcomed noise with nice music heard via headphones was perfect to blend that out.
Since the middle of 2018 I had been seeing a psychic woman on a regular basis who did a special esoteric therapy called “theta healing”. It is based on a slight form of hypnosis that uses the theta state of the brain. The brain is in theta state shortly before you fall asleep or after you just woke up. I guess after four years my brain was trained for that kind of treatment and I have easy access to being hypnotised.
During that “therapy” I had discovered some abilities that are not explainable with rational science. I am very sensitive and I can sense other people’s emotions. It comes in different forms. Dreams, hearing messages (claire voyant) and body sensations. The body sensations are comparable to what people describe who practice tantra. The theta healing woman usually said that something is off in my chakras. I didn’t believe her. Last May a friend, who is in shamanic education, said she thinks my chakras are fine. My friend didn’t want any money from me, the healing woman did get money…
Anyway, in the winter of 2020 / 2021 I was seeing a guy, we had a non-commital affair. With him the sensations were strong. He was going to the ice dippers sometimes. Oftentimes when he went, I felt it in my body. I didn’t know on which days he was going, the days were changing. Sometimes I asked him the next time we met, “what did you do wednesday morning around 9:30?”. He would say, yeah I went to the ice dippers and around that time I met my friend, we were preparing for dipping and talked about you. He tested it one time. We were having a gathering with some people. He sat a few meters away from me. I was talking to someone else. He concentrated and thought strongly about me and suddenly I had one of these shakes all over my body.
Another esoteric field is astrology, I know opinions differ about this. I think it is a great tool for reflection. Astrology is a very old system and has been used by many people. One year ago I was eager to have a study object. That radio gave me something. In the first month I was listening to it, looking at Carlo’s chart at the same time and looking for clues in the stories the songs told that would match to the story I made up with analysing his chart from afar.
Now I know, astrology does not work that way. You need some personal contact or at least a reliable bio. Analysing the charts of famous people is very common for astrologers.
From the beginning I was convinced that it was made by Carlo. I just knew. The few friends that believed me, soon said, well if it’s him why doesn’t he talk? Of course they were right, but somehow I could always find an excuse. This behaviour is called people-pleasing, I guess.
A quite important role in this play these body sensations I described above. I believe, I can not only connect through sex but also through music with someone in this way. During the months of April and May I had so many and so strong shakes, it was scary. I would get shakes when I hadn’t listened to the radio for a longer time. Or I would get shakes when I logged into facebook and after shaking I would see that Carlo was online as well. I didn’t check for these things, I mean I don’t care if someone is online or not. I used to have this behaviour in the past. But I learned it was not healthy for me and over time I learned not to care about this stuff.
The shakes started after I had bought that parfume, around christmas 2021.
Last big question I have is:
Can someone be hypnotised with music?
I have a friend who said, he heard that Italo Disco can have a hypnotising effect.
I do not know people I could ask, nor do I have an idea who I could ask.
This was the only usable answer I found with google:
Some Italo Disco songs do have beats that are similar to binaural beats. Sometimes I was not sure, if the radio was manipulated and extra beats were added to the songs that were playing.
IF the radio was made by Carlo, it is possible that he had such a mixer that could be used for adding beats or voice-over. I saw a facebook post by Alexander Arpeggio in January or February 2022, where he wanted to send such a mixer to Italy. He was asking if someone had experience with sending large cargo and what would be the best method. They both call themselves “Sounddesigner”. Now what exactly does a Sounddesigner do?
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