The slot machine works. It is incredible. Even the idea with 💎 worked. I had to help though and put a written description to the playlist. “Bookmark me” or something like that. I tried with 📑 first, but the radio man didn’t understand.
I am flying through Youtube Videos and I have the feeling I am actually having a conversation through music. The idea with the “watch later” list was perfect. Plus the youtube algorithms give many suggestions.
But then…
There must have been something in the radio that night where he told me that yes, this is for Karla and yes, I know a lot about you. I am watching you. Because of that incident with Tannenbaum I thought that he must have asked his friends in Berlin to watch over me. Weird, but apparently that is something Italians do when they are interested in a woman. My half italian astrology teacher had told me so.
It is very likely that I did not actually listen to the radio anymore. I watched the radio in the background and sometimes searched for songs from its recent playlist on youtube.
Here are songs from my Youtube search history that night and the videos I still remember that I had put in 💎:
10.05.2022, 20:14:26 nobody believes me italo
10.05.2022, 20:48:23 control freak italo
🧙♂️ 10.05.2022, 21:05:11 My Favourite Toys – Just One Kiss
🧙♂️ 10.05.2022, 21:22:29 papparazzi now is the time
10.05.2022, 21:23:12 kelly marie break out
🧙♂️ 10.05.2022, 21:27:07 kasso walkman
10.05.2022, 21:27:27 ibm computerlove
🧙♂️ 10.05.2022, 21:31:26 creatures believe in yourself
🧙♂️ 10.05.2022, 21:34:03 Rose – Magic Carillon (12″Version)
🧙♂️ 10.05.2022, 21:34:58 Prime Time – I Can’t Get Enough HQ
(both Rose and Prime Time were played a lot on the radio, I do not remember why I searched for them so shortly after another)
10.05.2022, 21:45:14 Flybox – Funky Now (Long Version) 1983
Again and again I stumble over this weird profile. “TheCostasK”. He has selfmade videos, all of them have an intro with a burning “C”. Some have a burning “K” which I find irritating. In his channel is a video on top, which starts on autoplay. It has a song that sounds as if the music is played backwards or something other weird. The first lyrics are “yes, we fake music”.
These are the videos I looked at that night:
10.05.2022, 21:45:29 The Diamonds – Heatwave (Vinyl 7”- 1983) HQ ”Costas K” —- My Channel —-
10.05.2022, 21:52:09 The NEW Sixties – You’re Fading Out (New Single 2021)
10.05.2022, 21:54:16 Kashtin – Apu Mintan (Leave Me Alone) 1991 (”CostasK” Ext. Long Version)
The uploaded videos seem to tell stories. The newest story starts around summer 2021 and tells about a man who meets a nice lady, but they suddenly have to part. Then the man misses her a lot and thinks about her and asks himself what she is doing and how she feels.
(I do not dare to look again now, that was very very creepy because I felt like TheCostasK was made by Carlo and the video diary was about me)
Back then I freaked out. I was convinced that this channel was made by Carlo.
10.05.2022, 22:05:47 dangerous
10.05.2022, 22:05:57 my sister has schizophrenia
10.05.2022, 22:07:41 worst time ever
10.05.2022, 22:29:07 creep
10.05.2022, 22:29:57 what else
The nearly instant answer to “What else is there?” was:
This song was very untypical for the radio. For some reason, I looked at the discogs site of it. I do not know why I did that. But I did. And I saw a glimpse of what else was there.
🧙♂️ 10.05.2022, 22:43:30 jairo night woman
(this one was creepy because in November 2021 I had shortly dated a guy named Jairo who had a problem with the use of condoms)
🧙♂️ 10.05.2022, 22:45:32 glasses crystals
What I saw on discogs, was even creepier than having a personalised radio “talking” to me.
10.05.2022, 22:50:15 hypnotic tango
10.05.2022, 22:50:33 hypnotised by music
10.05.2022, 22:50:45 hypnotize music
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